From time to time a poem

Better for being Broken


And in your darkest hour your anger cracks your heart
and you are guarding whats left with all you can
you try to safe, all that you hold dear
you see it fleeting

and you decide to push me away ,
not realising i hold the gold
to heal the wounds

I pour the melted metal in the cracks and see
the light still shining through , you are whole
You always have been , all that you hold dear
you see it fleeting

"resistance is futile" i whisper

Slowly and painfully hearts meet in this realm
the light seems dimmed but warms us still
We have always been all that we hold dear
So we start fleeting

Healing the wounds

You do not know me
Knowing only what you percieve
You do not hear me
Because I speak in silence
You do not see
Because I am hidden behind the words you interpret in your own unique way
You think you touch me
But I am vapour that trails away
Know only that I exist in extension of others thoughts and feelings
That there is nothing when I am alone
You will never know me
For once known I change, adapt and you can not follow.
Once heard
The silence is no more
Once touched
I fall apart and shadows flee
Shattered nothings
Half remembered rhythms
You do not know me
For I exist only within mirrored words

I am Jedi

There are those , who leave us here
to fend for ourselves
sweet nothings on the walls
snipy remarks in forums
have to remind us that they are still alive
still matter ...

but the truth of the matter is
they left us to fend for ourselves
and that's fine by me !
Would not want it
any other way ,
Just don't tell me what to be ,
or how not to be

I am Jedi ,
and even if this place blows up in my face

I am still Jedi

Parting Glass

Oh all the money that e'er I spent
I spent it in good company
And all the harm that e'er I've done
Alas, it was to none but me
And all I've done for want of wit
To memory now I can't recall
So fill to me the parting glass
Good night and joy be with you all

Oh all the comrades that e'er I've had
Are sorry for my going away
And all the sweethearts that e'er I've had
Would wish me one more day to stay
But since it falls unto my lot
That I should rise and you should not
I'll gently rise and I'll softly call
Good night and joy be with you all
Good night and joy be with you all

Like someone tore my heart apart

If you would think it would not hurt me
you are wrong because it does
It wrenches through all my senses
and every fiber of my body tries to numb
The urge to keep you
close to my heart and feed you

But the cord has broken for good reason
and we are left shattered
staring at what the storm left us
unaware of future consequences
and completely oblivious where this
will bring us
Why did i do this you wonder
I feel sorrow penetrating overall
from the inside out oozing

Knowing that the right thing
might be the very thing destroying
everything i had and loved and cherished
Leaving me unattached and blinded and numb
A blank canvas to be filled with yet again
a recipe for disaster and pain

~Marta Lina Thomassen

You pulled me in


You pulled me in
covered me with filth
were surprised i attacked
worried about appearance
rather than your Soul

I pulled your head back
exposing true intentions
hear flew around
in a fight yet to be resolved
rather than forgotten

We choose this fight
whether you like it or not
we will be covered
in each other's blood
rather than wondering

What the Hell ?


~ Marta Lina Thomassen

Wild Forest Heart

How much they tried to tame you ,my Wild Forest Heart
Born amongst the trees you became unmanageable

I was born from you in a state of complete confusion
You named me your first and fierce daughter

You celebrated my being in tears and cheap whiskey
Drove them away if ever they tried to hurt me

The jealous wept always wallowing in self pity
But you trained me to be me at all times.


I miss you Papa

Being will be attained by him,
who always sees the force in action.

He who finds his happiness within,
His delight within,
And his light within,
This Being attains the bliss of the force
Becomes the Force

Floating

I saw a vision of you and i swirling around each other
like angels without wings in utter amazement weightless
You became the light and i became darkness

In an overwhelming sense of togetherness and joy
nothing could touch us and yet everything could
We barely touched as we floated around each other
in this time in this place we were , connected
I became light and you became darkness

An attempt to bring balance to what we were about,
a slight feeling of sadness came in my heart as i realised
Gravity would get hold of us again and we would fall

Oceans apart again..

He must feel blooded with the spirit of a god
to sit opposite you and listen, and reply,
to your talk, your laughter, your touching,
breath-held silences. But what I feel, sitting here
and watching you, so stops my heart and binds
my tongue that I can't think what I might say
to breach the aureole around you there.
It's as if someone with flint and stone had sparked
a fire that kindled the flesh along my arms
and smothered me in its smoke-blind rush.
Paler than summer grass, it seems
I am already dead, or little short of dying.

Sappho