Rants far and wide

I am working on my degree so I can get paid more.
I have to work on my degree for the G.I. Bill benefits which allows me to support my family because my job doesn't pay enough
I am underpaid working in a job that makes my teeth itch in a toxic atmosphere and the extreme likely that the company will go under soon.
I am looking for a new job at the same time as the rest of this.

I am up at 8 with my son, off to work by 9, come home for an hour to eat dinner at 5, leave for school until 10:20pm for 2 classes, coming home again at 8 for another 2 and having to do homework, Etsy orders, and housework. I get to spend maybe an hour for a few days and two hours the others with my son before the weekend when he stays with his biological father and his grandparents. And then I get to make a choice to either spend an hour with my fiance and go to bed or I spend more time with her and wake up even more tired due to lack of sleep.

I appreciate the fact that I get to go to school on the G.I. Bill, but right now I feel like a cog in a machine, just trying to keep the bills paid and not die in the process. Even on the weekends it's dedicated to the housework I can't do during the week, homework, and trying to spend a few moments to make me happy for a bit because almost every bit of "me" time costs me sleep or stress elsewhere because I have so little time now.

I appreciate that I have a job, but I'm underpaid, poorly utilized, and the company is probably going down because I wasn't listened to. To top that off, I work with a boss who said that "I could do better" in regards to my fiance.

I'm tired. I just want to feel like I have control of my life again, but every time I try to reassert more control I just lose more control elsewhere.

"I know you're crippled from the pain in your hip every day, so how about I give you MORE pain! Now your back hurts!! Enjoy! " -Life

I'm starting to get really tired of this happening all the time. Frankly I don't even know why I bother anymore

My Master said that he didn't like my saber design, and that I should work on a new one. Just who does that Sith think he is sometimes?
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I will not throw my computer out the window...
I will not throw my computer out the window...
I will not throw my computer out the window...
I will not throw my computer out the window...
I will not throw my computer out the window...
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Gah I need a new computer *cries*

Its only been one month. How the heck am I supposed to make it through six?

Why must all baby stuff be blue or pink? I can't even buy blue stuff without it saying 'boy' or having a picture of a baby boy on it.

There are more colours in this universe!!! Green! Purple! Yellow! STOP USING PINK AND BLUE FOR BABIES FOR EVERYTHING.

*sighs*

I'm just not feeling here like a I used too. Not inspired at all. Is too much going on?

I told you that we would do it, you didn't need to do it behind our backs... but....