Williamkaede wrote: As you wish.
Thanks for the detail. Now we can discuss something of relevance. I will endeavor to be as honest and forthcoming in this reply as possible. I am not here to cause trouble or stir the pot, so to speak. I honestly enjoy the interactions I have at this place and I find great pleasure in discussing difficult subjects with others. I have been harsh in my delivery at times and in the past I have been unfair because I carried my own cognitive biases. However I have never stopped trying to learn what those are and correct them. It is why I persist at this temple and it is why I continue to study with those I find worthy and it is why I have recently volunteered to actually assist the temple in its mission to improve training.
Honestly I’m a bit baffled by your choices in these selections but on to your specifics…
Williamkaede wrote: A couple of lame shots taken at people in
this thread
.
Earlier in this thread I made a claim that “you” was a commonly used term in casual conversation. I was asked to provide sources for this claim. I did that and James came back and said my reply was provocative. I was truly baffled and I simply asked for clarification in this reply, to which I received none, and so I moved on. My reply was not meant to be provocative in any way.
Williamkaede wrote: And
here
, with Adder.
This is a result of simply frustration on my part. I had asked Adder, several times, to clarify his position by asking specific details and including an exact scenario to which we could come to a common ground. I also had told him that if I had failed to answer any of his questions, something he accused me of, that I would be more than happy to answer them. Over and over he continued to ignore all of my questions, failed to ask any questions he thought I had not answered and ignored my scenario and continued on in his replies as if everything he was saying was in direct response to me. I had asked others in the thread, some of the smartest people I know here, if I was being obtuse, and the consensus was that it was Adder that was making non sequiturs over and over. My frustration got the better of me and I responded over zealously. In fact I sent him a PM later and apologized, however I still feel that thread was dreadfully derailed by him.
Williamkaede wrote: Being pissy with council members
here
.
You are reading an incredible amount into this reply that is simply not there. I was simply asking for clarification on a request. That was not a pissy reply in the slightest. It was an honest inquiry. Much of the problem here is what you don’t see behind the scenes and my attempts to keep the membership informed as to goings on. I had been asking for weeks on clarification and I was getting no response. So I thought an open conversation might be the way to go. It was adder that came after me first by making some claim about my belief in rank. I’m not even sure why that was relevant to the conversation. But I realized quickly it was going nowhere and ended the exchange. He came after me and tried to start a fight about rank, not the other way around. I took my request back to PM and got a proper response from Ren on the status. I am working with him on the request now.
Williamkaede wrote: Trying to use 9/11 as a point and then doing nothing with it,
here
? Actually I'm seeing a pattern here between you and Adder. And Arisaig - that's a whole goddamn thread in itself.
What was I supposed to do with it in your opinion? I used it to make a point and that point was made. That sometimes logical discussion can’t be had in the face of radicalism. Once again adder was the aggressor here. He came after me in the next post and put extreme words in my mouth. I replied quite reasonably to him in the next post and we went on to discuss the subject a bit. After these last few exchanged with Adder I have stopped responding to him in fact because of his tendency to jump to conclusions as in this case. It’s just not worth it to me to be engaged in things like this.
Williamkaede wrote: Not gonna lie, you've said some stuff I agree with and have discussed elsewhere. Gonna own that. But I really don't think a difference of belief is what's kept you from knighthood twice over.
You have your opinion and I have mine and that is fine. However as I stated before, you only see a small portion of my interactions with this temple. There is an entire other world that you have no visibility into and I think you are making some unfair assessments without even really getting to know me. My views are not the norm of this place in many areas of my life and that has put me at odds with some here. It’s ok though. I have also realized that this is not the place I want to represent as a Knight and I think that is ok as well. I don’t follow the doctrine of this place but that does not mean that I am still not a “Jedi” nor that I can be a valuable contributor to this place in my own right. Many here do just the same thing. My goals right now include helping to develop that non-Knight path to B-div of other Jedi like me at this temple. That and showing people that they don’t have to be cookie cutouts but they can find and become themselves. I find value in that and that is enough for me.
