The Grateful Thread

I am grateful for a quiet morning.

I am grateful for kisses, and tentative beginnings.

Grateful for supportive PMs and listening ears.
My wonderful apprentices.
Family.

I am grateful for so many things, and so many kindnesses (yes that is a word...I double-checked! ). I am especially grateful for the true sense of community and caring I experience nightly in chat. Sure, it's silly and ridiculous at times, but it's also very real and very sincere when it should be. There's no better way to end a long day than with cheeks that hurt from laughing.

I'm thankful that for every devastation, there's an equal chance of miracles.

Seriously, it's been a long time since I've seen anything this wild. A horrible bit of news that had me relapsing two nights ago was last night just as quickly turned around and completely removed from my shoulders, without any reasonable explanation of how. I am in awe of how rapidly chaos can whirl around us, causing what we see as "good" and "bad," but it is all part of one life experience in harmony.

I have not felt this much gratitude for some time. I am still afraid it's too good to be true, and am mistrustful and suspicious, but I am trying to accept the coding I can't see for all of this.

And honestly, the amount of irony is astounding. I felt I was being punished by the bad thing that happened, for my own foolish choices, and that it was a sign I needed to stop what I was doing in one area. I was feeling suicidal again for the first time in a LONG time. But if I'd have done anything that night, I never would have gotten to see, the very next day, the entire problem removed. It's breath-taking.

I am grateful for not really breaking down yet.

The people that listen even when I'm ranting but who don't judge me for it.

Grateful for voice science. Gotta keep the larynx healthy!

A good job where I can apply myself even when it's trying, anxiety-inducing, and pays not enough. It pays, and it's something that I can put my all into.

My general immune system and my will power which allows me to power through those rare time when I do feel a little ill.